The energy yo yo.
Today was a great day. I made plans to get up early and go to breakfast with my family. I know that if I make myself do something then I end up finding energy. So, I have chemo on Friday and by Wednesday I begin to feel my energy come back. That gives me a whole day or two of feeling like a human before my next chemo. YAY! That is why I love the almost two weeks between treatments when I have my week off. It makes it so hard to go back for the first treatment. I feel so good that the idea of purposely making myself feel bad is completely unattractive. If there were an and date to this it would be different. Like if I knew that there was only 6 months of treatment and it would be over. But it never ends until we move on to the next effective drug therapy. Uggggh. I guess that I am just feeling sorry for myself and don't really want to go for chemo on Friday. What a wimp huh?